music – A Life Well Loved

April 19, 2023 – I was stressing for almost a week over a work meeting with Project Management. I didn’t know exactly what to expect and it was in front of all the Testbed Leads. I had lots of anxiety. On my drive home before the meeting the song Fighting For Me by Riley Clemmons came on and the Holy Spirit fell (I could feel His presence) as I sang it. He really confirmed that He was going before me and with me through it. That made me feel much better and the meeting went well. – God you are so good. Thank you for being there for me.-

Fighting For Me – Riley Clemmons

I need the kinda love that can outlast the night
I need the kinda love that is willing to fight

When the going gets tough
And my strength’s not enough
I see You showing up like never before
This battle for my heart
You took on from the start
You are the peace when my mind’s at war
And oh

You will never stop fighting for me
When I can’t fight for myself
Every word is a promise You keep
‘Cause You love me like nobody else
You stand up for me in the darkest night
When my faith is weak You’re still by my side
You will never stop fighting for me
You will never stop fighting for me

In the perfect timing You make all things right
You paint a silver lining in this heart of mine

When the going gets tough
And my strength’s not enough
I see You showing up like never before
This battle for my heart
You took on from the start
You are the peace when my mind’s at war
And oh

Your love
Is winning me over
Your heart
Is pulling me closer
Your love
Is winning me over
Your heart
Is pulling me closer

You will never stop
Fighting for me, fighting for me
Every word is a promise You keep
Ohh, yeah

You will never stop fighting for me
When I can’t fight for myself (when I can’t)
Every word is a promise You keep (ohh)
‘Cause You love me like nobody else
You stand up for me in the darkest night (You stand up for me in the dark)
When my faith is weak You’re still by my side (yeah, yeah, my sidee)
You will never stop fighting for me
You will never stop fighting for me

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June 2021 – Moving to Huntsville was a dream fulfilled. A miracle. For me, it was a journey of faith and observance. My husband so full of faith and belief that God was going to make a way was beautiful to watch. His eggs were all in the basket. I on the other hand was less convinced. Sure, I had Anna do her state project on the state of Alabama that year as a mediocre faith statement “just in case it did happen” but disbelief and defenses went up especially when the way we thought we would get there fell through. Paul hadn’t been approved for remote work. After that, I convinced myself to not get my hopes up cause I didn’t want to feel disappointment. God knew it and He had a better plan… God had a special blessing for Paul, not our way that was less than but one that was more than we imagined, his dream job. And so he found favor with his boss and was recommended for a position in Huntsville at MSFC. He got his dream job and he never looked back. I’d been living my dream for 20+ years and it was his turn and I was blessed to be able to fully support him. Surprisingly, I found favor too. I was able to secure my position as remote…that too took a move of God. I had full support from my project but after already moving and the formalities of remote work having to be enacted due to the end of Covid, it was first denied and I found myself having less than 2 weeks to get back to Maryland….thankfully there was a way to get that delayed contingent on me finding a job at MSFC, but after several conversations, a letter of recommendation and a manager sticking his neck out for me (thanks Ross!), the decision was reversed and my GSFC position was converted to a full time remote position. I wouldn’t have to leave the team I had worked with all these years. So as we turned down Bailey Cove Rd The Blessing played on the radio, followed by New Day by Danny Gokey as we pulled into the driveway at our new house. I can only explain that that brief car ride down those streets as a holy moment, recognizing His presence with us, His speaking to us through that music confirming the move, and His provision beyond anything I could think, beyond my doubt.